May 2020 Ko-fi Special

there may be a birthday

It’s May and this month, I’m doing something special on Ko-fi!

My 35th(!) birthday is at the end of this month and I want to give something back to everyone able to support me through ko-fi. So, for the entire month of May I will create a sketch for everyone that makes a donation on my ko-fi page during the month. For the donation of one coffee ($3 USD) you will get a sketch from me. Sketches will be in the style of the examples below. $3 USD will get you a lineart sketch, and I’ll add colour to it for an extra coffee (a total of $6 USD.)

Worthy of note

When donating, please include a link to the reference you’d like me to use and let me know a couple traits about that person or character’s personality. The sketch can be of your favourite character (fanart), one of your own characters (OCs), or even from a photograph.

  • Sketches will be of the bust, 2000 x 2000 pixels and @ 150DPI. JPEG.
  • Flowers (bouquet or in a vase), Humanoid or anthropomorphic characters are accepted. (No animals at this time, please!)
  • If you prefer to not make your request public, instead of sharing details in the donation comment section you may email me instead. Include a screenshot of your donation if you can.
  • You may donate multiple coffees for multiple sketches at the same time. Just let me know!
  • Sketches will be completed throughout the month as I have time. Commissions or raffles prizes (owed from April) will take priority. Please be patient!

And if that’s not enough incentive, there are also supporter rewards available for all supporters!

Supporter Rewards

Every month, I add two new items in the Supporter Downloads folder in my gallery on Ko-fi as a thank-you to all those who have supported my work. This folder is accessible by all supporters: subscribers, who choose to donate every month, and one-off supporters, who donate one time. The main difference between the two is that subscribers will always have access to the folder, whereas one-off supporters will have access for 30 days from the time they make a donation.

Those who wish to access the Supporter Downloads folder will need to make an account on Ko-fi in order to see the folder after donating.

These rewards are a thank-you from me. I appreciate every one that is able to support my work, and this is one of the ways I want to give back. If there’s something else you’d like to see, please do let me know!


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Talizmyn’s April Art Update

We’re at of the end of April in the year that has been a thousand-year blink. It is a vast expanse of time that has vanished between breaths. I see the work I have done over the last few months and think, “Wow, I made that so long ago.” Only, upon checking posting dates and timestamps, I discover a week, or maybe two, has passed. The months have become emotionally heavy.

At least, that is how it feels to me.

What has it been like for you?
How are you holding up?

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New Tablet and Ko-fi Goal

Two weeks ago, during the One Week Portrait Challenge, I wrote about how my tablet broke on Wednesday: midway through the challenge. When that happened, after I spent a bit of time panicking, my husband encouraged me to look into getting a tablet that would work for me.

After much research and consideration, based on the types of tablets I found, we decided the cost difference between a decent tablet and a great tablet was too small. And so, rather than settle for decent, we ordered a Microsoft Surface Book 2.

Everyone who donated through Ko-fi in the last few months, or commissioned me for work, helped me afford this tablet. And so I would like to say: thank you. You’re actively helping me become a better artist and designer, and it is appreciated.

New Ko-fi Goal

March was full of tough decisions, and to be honest it was a really scary time. I was so nervous making posts about my fears, and dealing with the anxiety that came with all of the uncertainty. That anxiety and uncertainty has not all gone away, of course, but it is less new and a little more familiar. And frankly, familiar has always been easier to deal with, for me.

I’m fortunate for the family I have, for those who can and choose to support me through Ko-fi, and being in a position where I’m able to change my Ko-fi goal again from food/rent to something beyond necessity. And I know this could change at any moment. But, for now, I want to have hope and think positively. And this, for me, means aiming for something that will help me create, improve my abilities, and do what I love to do.

And that’s to create good art.

One program I have wanted for some time is Clip Studio Paint. My Ko-fi goal has been updated to reflect the plan to purchase Clip Studio Paint Ex, for $219 USD. I would prefer to purchase the program outright, rather than pay a monthly subscription, as I’m not a fan of the subscription model for using programs.

The program itself has some impressive features including a variety of functions designed for comic-creation, smart colouring tools, precision rulers, and comes with an impressive library of brushes, poses, and other resources. Given all that the program offers, and with the potential to increase my workflow and improve my abilities, the cost of the program seems more than reasonable. That’s not to say I won’t be keeping an eye out for a sale, though!

Want to help me reach my goal?

The learning curve for Clip Studio Paint may be steep, but I’m up for the challenge.


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Talizmyn’s March Art Update

March has certainly been a trial in productivity and I have been trying not to drown in the waves of anxiety. I’ve been trying to keep the depression at bay, but in the last few days I finally realized part of the reason I have been feeling so low… I haven’t kept it at bay.

Not at all.

I’m focusing far too much on the news, and really need to take steps back. More so than I thought. Depression is finding a way to settle in but, thankfully, it rarely stops me from creating. I can work through it, I just need to be careful and take more breaks. Plus, I know why it’s here this time.

This pandemic, and the state of the country, are making a mess of my mental space. I need find some higher ground and remember how to breathe. I’m not drowning. I’ll get through it.

We’ll get through it.

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A March of Tough Decisions

Crimson and Green Cutouts. January 13, 2004. Photograph.

March has certainly been a trial. I had to make some serious changes, as I’m sure a lot of us have. As I’m currently looking for work, which has been the case since January, my day-to-day hasn’t changed so much. I’m still promoting my artwork, trying to get more of my work “out there”, working on some personal projects, taking commissions, and looking for work in the digital art or graphic design fields.

My husband, however, lost his job recently. He work(s)(ed)(?) for a small start-up and, while they want to keep running and paying people, they have to think about the future of the company… and that means they had to lay off a bunch of employees. Including their only mechanical engineer.

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Twitter Art Raffle

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I’m running an art raffle on Twitter, with the draw on April 25th!

Three (3) people will win a free coloured sketch from me, of a character of their choice.
Anyone can enter! ❤

Art will be in a similar style to the image in the original post (see above). Character can be your original, an avatar from a game, or one from your favourite show or even book. Make sure to have a visual reference if you win! ✨

To Enter
⭐ Follow me on Twitter, and
⭐ Retweet this post

The Draw
⭐ April 25th 2020 at 1:00pm PDT

Winners will be chosen randomly. 
Check it out on Twitter!

To those not on Twitter: Sorry! If there’s enough interest I may hold another either on ko-fi or through my blog. Let me know if you’re interested in that, or have any questions. 🙂


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Trials in Creative Productivity

Trying to make sense of all these pieces.
Doodle, March 2020.

It’s hard to be creative and productive when the worry and anxiety are so overwhelming. But I don’t need to really need to say it when so many of us are feeling it, do I?

How do we not not focus on the awfulness coming up from this virus, like the panic and greed causing toilet paper shortages? My family didn’t stock up weeks ago, aiming to be reasonable about purchasing and leaving enough for others. But, unfortunately, that means we’re now running out.

Of toilet paper. Of all things.

Clearly, not everyone else thought the way we did.


Before this all started, I was working on my own projects while searching for a job. I’ve been doing small freelance jobs and commissions, but a steady full-time job is preferable. While I have been applying, I have had little feedback or response. I’m trying not to get discouraged, since I also know that there are a number of people getting laid off now and also looking for work. It’s a difficult time and the demand for work is high. It will like be some time before I find a job, especially one that’s full time.

I’m not going to stop looking, though.

At the end of February I went to visit my parents in Toronto for my mom’s birthday. More information was coming out about the virus after my arrival, and the seriousness of what was happening in China and Italy was coming to the forefront. Luckily, I was able to get back to California before a pandemic was declared. All the while being careful not to touch my face and to wash my hands and to wash my hands and to wash my hands.

It has been nearly two weeks since my return and everything feels like it’s all different, all over again. And it is such a change that I need to relearn how to work within it. To learn how to be able to focus despite these stresses looming overhead. These last few weeks have been rough and creatively empty for me. This last Tuesday I tried to draw, but it was a real struggle to maintain any semblance of focus.

I’m unused to dealing with these kinds of feelings when it’s not depression. It feels so strange to say it like that, too. I don’t want to treat it like depression, either, but it’s so close. But maybe that feeling is coming from a worry that, by doing so, I’ll let Real Depression in and have to deal with that, too.


Wednesday (the 18th) I tried to work on writing for an hour, and fared a little better. (An hour seemed like a small but reachable goal.) The urge to check email, news, Twitter, etc, was unbelievably strong. I had to repeatedly interrupt my actions with directions and reminders.

“The news will be there when you’re done.”
“There’s nothing on Twitter that can’t wait another half hour.”
“You’re doing this for your own sanity. Relax.”

Oof.


I’m still working on taking care of myself, and redirecting my focus from following the news too closely. Remembering to take a nap if I’m overwhelmed or read more books that I enjoy. (Evidence of this is the recent influx of book reviews on the blog.) It’s far too easy to get caught up in the influx of information everywhere. One can’t check Facebook, Twitter, or Instagram without being flooded with news.

It’s time for a break from social media. Not completely, as I do need to be informed, but limits need to be in place for my own sanity. Resorting to checking social media less, maybe just 2-3 times a day, then leaving it for a few hours to allow myself to relax.

Thursday, I was doing better putting this social media moratorium into practice. It’s a start.

And then my husband got laid off from his job.


I know I’m not the only one going through issues like this. (Dealing with the effects of the pandemic, metal health stuff, etc.) A lot of us are. And a lot of us are worse off than I am right now. The world is a scary place these days, and I wish I had some good advice or insight to offer, but I really don’t. This is new for everyone. And we can only try to do our best, even if that’s not good enough for now.

All I can think of is: Stay safe out there, and try to be strong. I’m trying, too.


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